1. |
Note to Self
04:18
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put
deodorant on
smile, hide yourself
when you’re feeling
human
but,
you make me nervous
eat,
just enough to seem
normal, brush your teeth
Keep up, don’t go crazy,
make your life look easy
write a note, to yourself
- maintain yourself
start, stopping yourself when,
things get hard,
don’t cause,
problems,
and i feel like a problem
write a note to yourself, restrain yourself
wash, out your dirty mouth
and your face,
and wash
your hands
of all, you thought you were about
and watch, your mouth when you speak,
and your step, and who
it is
you’re turning out
to be
write a note, to yourself
- contain yourself
///
write a note, to yourself
- divorce, your self
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2. |
about me
03:11
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how wrong is this song
I don’t want to bore you if it’s too sad or too long, but i keep it, inside
where at first you can’t see I’m terrified, i
don’t know anything about me
wake, work, repeat
I don’t want to play
where ya gonna wake; work; repeat I don’t want to say
so i keep it inside
what i should probably be
I’m scared because i might
not know anything
about me
grow old and be a cog in a machine, grow up find yourself what does that even mean?
so i keep it inside where i can barely see I’m terrified i might Not know anything
I don’t know anything
I don’t know anything
I don’t know anything
about me
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3. |
A Dull Essence
03:33
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broken things, like broken strings Can show you new notes to sing, well who am i?
since i’ve been trying to keep track of time gone by
take all day to wake up
go out at night to lose your stuff Well look at me
should i cut my hair
don’t recognize who i’ve come to be I don’t know those eyes
i can’t read what they see
heavy hearts like
mismatched parts confuse my
sense of
where to start from
it’s just a dull essence we’re feeling Like we’re going under
i’m so tired
of growing up and
coming out of
of my own skin
it’s a dull essence it’s almost Like i’m feeling something
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4. |
Flowers
02:41
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blood on my teeth, all that i, i can seem Seem to eat, eat is red meat these days The color green, it reminds, reminds me Of the garden, that we shared
and all we shared there
that flower smell, it’s a powerful spell Can’t you tell - girls
have been falling for ages
because beauty it sells
and we can’t help ourselves Why should we if
if we don’t have to
if we don’t have to Why should we try? If we don’t have to We’re not gonna try
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5. |
Milestones
03:52
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keep passing milestones and i don’t feel traveled
each one that comes i feel more unraveled
check my life off a to-do list
day by day pretend I give a shit, when i don’t
sit up stand up say your name
learn to shit in a toilet, don’t be afraid
to ride a bike down your lane
with no guarantee that you’ll be safe
so young, with nothing on your plate
wave when dad and mom drive away
everything that I’ve done feels fake
enough to mistake
it all for something
that’s mine
lose a tooth a grandpa too
join a sport and learn to lose
fuck up, stand out, masturbate
hug the wall at prom and graduate
and wave, as dad and move drive away
don’t forget, what you planned to say
everything that we say feels fake
enough to mistake
you for someone i know
my oh-maya you’ve grown old
tell me where does the time go
couldn’t tell you if i knew
didn’t notice that i grew
my oh my how you’ve grown tall
what’s new, tell me it all
keep passing milestones and i don’t feel traveled
each one comes i feel more unraveled
check my life off a to-do list
day by day, try to give a shit
or i won’t!!!
everything, that I feel feels fake
enough to mistake
me for someone i know
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6. |
Gravity
04:17
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something’s been happening in my life,
i think that i might even start to like it
if i could try a little harder
or maybe if i was smarter
is it my fault for hanging around
there’s a, universe in your mind
that I’d like to find out
from your mouth
tell me a story about your day
i’ve been spending way,
too much time thinking
if you’re alright
if gravity it always wins
fuck then why am I fighting
all i want is direction
that isn’t down
something big’s happening here
can you feel it, hear it dear
way too big way too big to see
from up close
each day gets, a little heavier
what if I could hold on a little longer
or maybe if i was stronger
things might turn
turn around
but too much data’s coming in
for my broken processing
banking on some instruction
for a way out
it will feel more normal with time
insist it don’t hurt scream, that you feel fine
frin bear take all that you can hold
(I’ll / we’ll ) be right here if you ever feel cold
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7. |
Dinner
03:31
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another meal, all alone
in my family, we
all do, our
own thing
staring at my thumbs,
and then
my phone, wonderin where its is
i wanna be
walkin home, everyday, wondering, if
i'll always be the same
waiting on a change in my step
guess that stink is
still my
upper lip
i'm addicted to company
why don't you sue me
constantly heat seeking what else, would i be
up to when i'm
i'm not performing
i'm not saying, that it's right
i'm just surviving
on my own
another meal all alone,
my family's
all around me
staring at their hands
tryna count the times
we've been
together in the
last
five years
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8. |
Will I
03:44
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something’s been going on
in your head
maybe it’s in
your heart
or soul instead
please just
let me know, if you need somebody
to listen
I think that you’re afraid
of your own voice
And think you need to make, to
make a choice
before anything’s happened
everyone told me, life isn’t easy
and that i wouldn’t see
clear until i
opened my eyes and it
looked like a dream
I think to myself
will i succumb to fear?
this ship’s going down
should i get out of here?
the TV warned me
that love is messy
and i would not believe
it until, tasted for myself
and boy was it sweet
i think to myself
will i get out alive?
because this girl is running my mind
i know you too well to ignore what you say
maybe it’s worth it to learn to live with pain
If we’re not gonna stay
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9. |
Darlin' Girl
05:28
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darlin girl
where did, you go
loved you so much deeper than i could have known but
we’re out of time
dear old friend
remember when, we used to play
things they change, how we wish
they’d stay
but we’re lost in time
you’re hungry and nothing looks good
and you curl up so tight inside your hood
and hide
from the night
you’re tired and you’re
too afraid to sleep
and you want a patient heart
that you can keep
but it don’t work, like that
love it don’t work, like that
time it don’t work, like that
we get older
and still want to feel alive
things get colder, and nothing
feels right
nothing, feels right
and i miss
the you, that I’ve lost
in time
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